A busy day already. Had an 8am meeting and woke up half-way through it. Slept a bit late-ish. Yesterday was full also with networking and reaching out to various people globally. Finally got in touch with Sunil, who's the same and somehow now not all going to leave his wife. Apparently she's made some ammeds about being so nuts. He'll be coming out here when I'm returning. He's supportive of my decision to move back, which is nice. To him it's all not a big deal, just life shit that we'll always experience, that each moment is God's will happening, and it will all be just fine. Telling Sarah was awkward. She's frustrated with me, all my stupid back and forth with wanting to come back and not. She's done everything she can but I agree with Nannette that it's an ineffective coddling, oh, just be patient, we'll be with you at some point, like an Indian response with it all. I'm letting them kind of control my life, dictate what I do and want, and that's naïve. Ultimately of course, it's in God's control and I have no clue and can't know. But as it stands, I want to take more action into getting what I want. Sarah just isn't moving fast enough. The higher ups don't take me at all seriously. I've made my bad impressions and who knows what they really think. Now maybe they will. I will play ball. They can totally make it happen! But "Plan B" must also be in place and that I won't be afraid of. Called my Dad too. That was an impulsive thing but I felt like it. He was initially in a bad spot with Jade I'm sure, but he called me back and we were able to pleasantly catch up. Good to know he still cares but kind of a bummer that he doesn't seem super concerned about my well-being. It's been a relief for him not to deal with me for the pat 4 years. Fucking crazy situation. Jade being all reactive about me. Weird. And I called Mom for a late-Mother's day dinner. That was actually cool too, pleasant and easy. She wasn't all drunk and out of it, wanting to escape from the day in some form of checking out indulgence. We were able to laugh and connect over a shit load of Chinese food from that place on Hyde and California. She's still my Mom and interesting to hear her be all anecdotal with me, concerned about my youth and relationship status. All weird life stuff right now. Work is fucking nuts again!
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